感慨。。。部落格。。只剩下你了。

友谊，脆弱吗？
那是我曾经三番五次问自己的问题。。。
虽然时间像飞机一样，“咻” 的一声就飞走了, 但是, 不得不承认的, 飞机也有departure and waiting status, 有启程有回程...友谊呢?

Today, again, (a boy or i would say) a guy (?) who always pulled me into the emo status, had again, (after viewing his blog), told me that life was not as predicted.... It's always the fact and FACT hurts....

Now, i had promised this particular guy, B, that i won't use blog to gossip bout other people or even as a tool to scold and accuse other persons...
But, but, but.....
I really have to release stress lar....
So, B, sorry ya~
Well, here i go!!

I really really really can't stand a person's attitude whom i had to tolerate with....I mean always...
I admit that i'm the kind of person who always mumble and often than not, EMO!! I might suddenly get angry and tend to raise my voice at someone who was just kidding...(of course the main point is that the joke was not funny and it hurts) For, if i were in happy mood, no matter how hurt u hurt me, i am still ok with it.... Vice versa... In bad mood, even a tiny linny thing will make me go mad...

So, here it goes....An EMO person like me have to tolerate with another EMO-IER person.... When both of them exploded....(can you imagine that?? hmm...)
That's wad happened recently....

Story begun....

Teacher:" Sorry, is A here?"
Me: "No. y teacher?"
Teacher: "Oh...I want A to fill in this form for the competition. Can you ask him to find me now if you see him later?"
Me: "ok."
JJ: "Jocelynn, we go chemistry lab earlier lo...Go to dewan, A is always there. Tell him."
Me:" Ya lo..Should be urgent de. Competition de wor.."

Went to dewan. JJ was photostating her club's reports and i was searching for A. Even asked his friends in the school hall, but neither see A. Waiting...
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Me: " Eh, A!! Puan Teresa Leong was looking for you."
And he was walking passed me, without a backward glance, the distance was getting bigger and bigger... Then, he raised his voice...
A:" Which Pn Teresa? Do you know that our school has 3 pn. Teresa?"

*Excuse me?? I did mention the surname. If...If u stand still and listen...
So, i raised my voise too : "Pn Teresa Leong..."
Then, finally, with a glance he shout.... (i gues he was shouting)
A:" I know lar!!"

*What?? You knew it?? Then what for you ask again? And Sir, you thought there's noone besides you? Your friends are all there....And yet you shout at me.... What's wrong with me?? I am just kind-hearted enough to inform you that teacher was finding you for something i thought might be urgent.... as a FRIEND, i should do so (i guess)*

So, he proved me wrong....As a FRIEND, i should not be so kintio...(nervous)
As a FRIEND, i should not be so kind-hearted!!
As a FRIEND, i should not repeat the name when you seemed to be "dont know"
As a FRIEND, I should smile when you shout at me?
As a FRIEND, I should tolerate with your bad behaviour when you are not in good mood?
As a FRIEND, I.........................Haiz....
So, in a beanshell, i should not be your friend lar??
Is that so? I don't know...
Many times, i feel like talking to you, but, i just cant forgive you whereby you don't even think that you are wrong... I always said "Sorry" and now, you are just a greedy man who don't even DARE to say Sorry for what you have done wrongly....
If you say Sorry, i will surely forgive you de....
I don't like being angry with someone who is really close to me (i mean sit close to me) because you have to face that person everyday + you have to see him walked passed you and can't even say a "Hi!=D"
How sad....
Afterall, I might be wrong too... I don't know...Still thinking hard....
But, if you say sorry, i will say sorry too....(Eventhough i don't know for what, but if you are the ego type, then, the "Sorry" will just be like a present for you lar... I'm not that greedy!!=D)

That's the end of the story....
Friendship are not as strong as it seems....
It gets stronger after every challenges you faced together....
In condition that both of you are still tightly linked together after the challenges...
That's something whereby small amount of people can manage to tackle with....

To B, i always learnt something from your blog....
Although it seems quite emo with all the "deep deep" words and meaningful articles....
I really like it, because something always appeared in my mind after reading them and made me think....*brain-storming* Haha=D

Today, duck also asked me something which made him very emo ki.....(EMO is really a good word to describe someone's feeling lar...especially a form 5 student)
He asked me did he changed a lot...
Well, sometimes, this type of question you have two ways to answer... 1. Say the truth and hurt that person... 2. Tell a lie and make him feel better, but in fact, make things worse because he will never realised what he had done.

So, as a FRIEND, i asked him :" Do you want to listen to the truth??"
As expected, "yes"...
"Hmm.... yes, you have changed a lot..."
"In good way or bad way?"
"From what i see, recently, bad way................................................................................" ("..." indicates my explanation)
Hence, you can see how dark duck's face is.... Straight away become.... (yes! The word again...) EMO!!
After that, it made me feel so bad...
You want the truth right?? Give you lar...(Mr. ang's tone)
Everyone is changing...Me too...
I would say that i might be worse than you...so don't worry...
It's true.... I, myself knew that i've changed to the evil person....
Eventhough i knew that it should not be like this, but it just happened....
The main point is not about you've changed or not....It's whether you are willing to change back to your normal attitude or not..
I am trying...Trying.....It's difficult, as i don't know why, when you are evil, you see people's weaknesses.... whatever he or she said, it just doesn't seem right to you....
So, my 3 lessons to change back to myself is....:
1. See people's good qualities...
2. Find excuses for their bad behaviour to make yourself love them more
3. Talk to them just like before...Erm, i mean try...

That's the end again for this long post....
All bout friendship

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